Its not always rainbows and lollipops…

Big surprise right? Its not like you weren’t already aware that life can be rather awful at times. That is a lesson we learn early on.

When I switched to this new blog name/dot com, I was determined to share more of my real life. Well lots of real life has happened in the past 2 weeks… Hubby and I had quite an argument .. and it wasn’t pretty. I ugly cried. Twice.  What is it about figuring out financial stuff that is so hard for couples? It was hard, but we worked through it.

Saturday was busy. Filled with little bits of drama… nothing major but it was exhausting. Emotionally I was a wreck, worrying, thinking and praying for Miss Katy. Saturday night I found out she’d passed from this world into the presence of our Lord.

I wish I could say I knew her better. I know that she was a fantastic Wife, Sister, Mother, Grandmother and Great-Grandmother. She has left a lasting impression on my life.

 

The first Sunday I went to church here in Texas, I was greeted by her warm smile. She sat down to talk with me, and made me feel very welcome. Her generous and welcoming spirit was a big part of why I returned to Central Baptist and eventually made it my home church. She continued to welcome me with open arms. Her weekly hugs and kind words made the longing that I had for my family a little less poignant.

Miss Katy leaves behind a legacy of Love, Kindness, generosity, and genuine Faith. 3 generations follow her example and her love for Christ. I sincerely hope that one day, the same can and will be said of me.

Sunday was a mess. It has been a very, very long time since I’ve wanted to skip church as much as I wanted to this week. I knew that being there, without Miss Katy was going to be impossibly hard. Seeing the tear filled eyes of the people that knew and loved her, made it even harder. I tried to fight the tears… but gave up when we started singing. Songs about mansions in heaven and being in Jesus presence were my undoing. Part of me felt so silly. I’ve only known Miss Katy for a little over a year, and yet I was crying as though she was my own grandmother. She had that kind of impact on me. I wish I could have claimed her as my Nunu. That would have been an honor.

(via: the accidental executive)

As I sit here, trying to put into words how I feel, how this woman touched my life, I can’t help but think about my own legacy. Will people look back on my life and say “WOW! She LOVED God”? Will they talk about the impact I had on them? I don’t wonder these things because I seek fame or glory, but from a genuine desire to direct people to the Lord through my life. When people look at me, I want them to see Jesus. Just as I did when I looked at Miss Katy.

We’re laying Miss Katy to rest today and celebrating her incredible life. Pray for me…